black orchids

2004-05-20T17:02:00.000+01:00

Cure My Tragedy (A Letter To God)

Remember all the times that we used to play?
You were lost and I would save you
I don't think those feelings will ever fade
You were born a part of me
I was never good at hiding anything
My thoughts break me
Do you understand what you mean to me?
You are my faith

[Chorus]
Won't you cure my tragedy? [x2]
Don't take her smile away from me
She's broken and I'm far away
Won't you cure my tragedy? [x2]
if you make the world a stage for me
then I hope that you can hear me scream
Won't you cure my tragedy?

When I sit and think of the days we shared
and the nights you covered for me
Every little thing that I ever did
You would stand by me
Everytime you cried it would take my wind
My heart would break
If I could be strong like you were for me
You are my faith

[Chorus]
Won't you cure my tragedy? [x2]
Don't take her smile away from me
She's broken and I'm far away
Won't you cure my tragedy? [x2]
if you make the world a stage for me
then I hope that you can hear me scream
Won't you cure my tragedy?

Can you hear me scream? [x2]

[Chorus]
Won't you cure my tragedy? [x2]
Don't take her smile away from me
She's broken and I'm far away
Won't you cure my tragedy? [x2]
if you make the world a stage for me
then I hope that you can hear me scream
Won't you cure my tragedy?

I can't take this anymore
I can't feel this anymore
Won't take and give her pain to me
'Cause my whole life I've made mistakes
Can you hear me scream? [x2]

Des Exams Are Da dogs Bollocks

2004-05-20T17:00:00.000+01:00

i hate exams... the desire to revise is getting less by the second, but i know i have one night left and im off again for 4 months at the least... anyway... this has been a pretty standard week, no one going out and getting ratted, but i know i will be tomorro night thats for certain. :)

1 down, 3 to go

2004-05-19T10:16:00.000+01:00

hey all...just currently doing my thing in the revision department... going pretty wank but hey... just want them out of the way so these butterflies will leave my stomach, or are they there for another reason... grrr

exams suck

2004-05-17T19:36:00.000+01:00

hello... this week sees me having 4 exams in 4 days... plus work at sainsburys... great stuff... friday night will be a lash up i will never forget believe me. plus i hate the hot weather.

Todays entertainment

2004-05-15T17:32:00.000+01:00

Today Matthew, im going to be...going to the InMe gig at Sugarmill, Hanley... should be a good show hopefully, saw them play at reading festival last year and they were good to see, known of them for about 2 years, and anticipating a growth in their music and strengthening their position as one of the most up and coming british rock bands... a report on the band will follow later :)

Friday 14th May 2004

2004-05-15T02:45:00.000+01:00

Twas a night before christmas... not really... but it felt like it... the cold air on your naked nipples was painful to say the least... as we were chucked out for a fire drill of sorts... anyway, it was a good piss up as always.

I drank: 2 pints of Strongbow and a quadruple Baileys

Pulls: hmmm, once again there was a certain someone ;)

Night rating: 9 out of 10 once again, good night it was

Moment of the night: Singing random songs about random people and our football teams to entertain us whilst the fire alarm rang :D

Short Stories With Tragic Endings

2004-05-14T21:56:00.000+01:00

(Did you ever look, did you ever see that one person,
and the subtle way that they do these things and it hurts so much?
So much like choking down the embers of a great blaze.
It's that moment when your eyes seem to spread aspersions
and to scream confessions at the insipid sky parting clouds.
You let this one person come down in the most perfect moment.
And it breaks my heart to know the only reason you are here now is
A reminder of what I'll never have
I'll never have... I'll never...
Standing so close knowing that it kills me to breathe you in.
Standing so close knowing that it kills me to breathe you in.
But this table for one has become bearable.
I now take comfort in this, and for this, I cherish you.
Did you ever look, did you ever see that one person
and the subtle way that they do these things and it hurts so much?
So much like choking down the embers of a great blaze.
It's that moment when your eyes seem to spread aspersions
and to scream confessions at the insipid sky parting clouds.
And you let this one person come down, come down.
I cherish you...I cherish you.
Just say you would do the same for me.
Just say you would do the same for me.
Say you would do the same...
Just say you would do the same for me.
For as much as I love Autumn,
I'm giving myself to Ashes.)

Day 2

2004-05-14T17:14:00.000+01:00

Ok, so its not day 2, but day 2 of my thoughts...

aint life fooking grand? the joys of self control and allowing yourself to be free and do what you want is something that all people should have every now and then...without it life is like following a religion, constantly living your life to the words of a book. because thats what a relationship is in some ways, constantly having to relate to the book to see if you are doing the right thing. there is a certain tempatation to follow the book and do what you feel is correct... i must admit there are certain arenas in my life that i am doing this now, and sometimes it doesnt come off too well... but in a lot of ways having the freedom to do what you like is a good thing to have, the americans fought for it after all. well, within reason... but if that fooking brummie who chooses to be ginger is out and looking for a thump, he will get one.

anyway, write some comments, tell me how you are feeling about stuff... how you are feeling on day 2 :D

Jack Vamplew 1-0 Sainsburys :D

2004-05-13T23:38:00.000+01:00

after pulling a sickie yesterday, returning to work filled me with the thought that i was going to be asked to work friday...and miss out on a boys nite out... plus having to work sucks... anyway, went in, apologised for being ill, but the boss wasnt there! result, no warnings or anything... the night progressed and the idea of friday nite off was becoming a reality, when my boss walks round the corner, says hello... denied! surely i will have to work...but no! ha ha hahahahahahahahahaha you fags... i'll be getting ratted tomorro now.

Wednesday 12th May

2004-05-13T10:55:00.000+01:00

This is the night that preceeded the football matches of the day, and usually you will find team members walking around the dance floor or gallery bar...usually im also in the retro room, but for a number of reasons i found myself bopping away in the retro rooms. So it was cheese music all night, followed by chicken burgers to fill the alcohol filled belly... not too much last nite as it was the 4th nite in the row i was filling my gut and killing my liver.

I drank: 3 pints of Strongbow...enough to be merry.

Pulls: well, there was a certain person...:)

Night rating: 9 out of 10... didnt want it to end but then the best things are always best in short doses :P

Moment of the night: Gareth Dunn, being a scamp, going around turning the arcade games on and off

bad day for the beebop fan...

2004-05-12T20:43:00.000+01:00

sadly, we lost the two games we played today, 3-2 and 4-0... a gutting afternoon but nonetheless we are all going out to get wasted tonight... 4th night in a row for me. a report of events will occur as always tomorro :)

Big day...

2004-05-12T09:33:00.000+01:00

today is the day of two big football games for the wednesday boys and AFC Beebop... a rematch against 3-1 victors Baldwins is on the cards for the afternoon match, and with wet conditions it should make for an interesting match... then in the evening, 3rd placed AFC Beebop take on top of the league Clive Everton... a big match for our title push.

wish us luck :)

tuesday may 12th 2004

2004-05-12T03:12:00.000+01:00

hello...just come back in from fluid in 'castle. the night was alright until the end for a number of reasons... me chelsea farmer will and gaz were out for student night in castle fluid, for rnb spectacular...

i drank: 1 blackthorn, 4 orange reefs, 3 dbl vodka and red bull

pulls: none, but i dont really care...

moment of the night: wasnt one really

rating: 4...too many pissed off people

Day 1

2004-05-11T16:26:00.000+01:00

Following the movement towards the internet super highway and technological advancemetns, the web has brought about a system of website called Blogging, where you put your thoughts or notices in a box, and it makes it into a site, for free. amazing.

anyway, i guess this is my first serious post. The previous ones have gone into the enchantments of the night before, and also the song im currently repeating to a number currently in double figures... im having a bad day. Im not off to see incubus because im trying my best to be a gentleman... something that has eluded me for perhaps 24 months... the problems ive encounted. Im also nursing a large hangover that wont go away, so i might have to just do it again, to stop the hangover you dont allow it to happen. Revision has also gone to pot today. essays were alright. my ankle feels like its exploding. And im writing my thoughts on some shitty thing because i have no life, or thats what someone seems to think...

i dont know why im telling you this...its probably because i know none of you will read it, or even care what this says... i guess its there to make me feel better, so that if anyone sees me wanting to not talk about it, they can come here and see what im really thinking...well to an extent, i can never be fully honest with anyone. well, not with everyone, but one or two. they know who they are... digging stopped.

2004-05-11T15:38:00.000+01:00

"Heartache Every Moment"

From lashes to ashes
And from lust to dust
In your sweetest torment
I'm lost
And no heaven can help us
Ready, willing and able
To lose it all
For a kiss so fatal
And so worn

Oh it's heartache every moment
From the start 'til the end
It's heartache every moment
With you
Deeper into our heavenly suffering
Our fragile souls are falling
It's heartache every moment
Baby with you

And we sense the danger
But don't wanna give up
'Cause there's no smile of an angel
Without the wrath of god

Oh it's heartache every moment
From the start 'til the end
It's heartache every moment
With you
Deeper into our heavenly suffering
Our fragile souls are falling
It's heartache every moment
Baby with you
My darling with you

From lashes to ashes
And from lust to dust
In your sweetest torment
I am lost
And we sense the danger
But don't wanna give up

Oh it's heartache every moment
From the start 'til the end
It's heartache every moment
With you
Deeper into our heavenly suffering
Our fragile souls are falling
It's heartache every moment with you
That's right

Moment of the night

2004-05-11T15:15:00.000+01:00

the moment of the night was by Chelsea...who decided to go for some hot birds... and scared them off with his tonhead :)

last night

2004-05-11T09:15:00.000+01:00

hello... its the morning after the large piss up... number 2 of 4 in a row... although im tepmted to give it a rest tonight... the boys that consisted of me chelsea and farmer, went out into Hanley for the student night of monday. Started off in Weathers, where we had a burger and a pint meal...well chelsea and farmer had 2. then we moved on to Liquid to swap between rnb and rock for 150 minutes.

Drinks: 1 pint of blackthorn, 3 double vodka and red bulls, and i think (i cant remember) 4 bottles of vk apple... howlin'!

Pulls: None, but this is doggy hanley we are talking about

Night rating: 8 out of 10... needed a few more, but the secluded feel was good :)

Its all good

2004-05-11T03:01:00.000+01:00

hello all, just been on a night out... in hanley, what a lovely place... theres alcohol, egg burgers, a long walk home... just wanna thank chelsea and farmer for a top night... more tomorro.